again i tried to give love a chance. now i know why i stopped looking for it in the first place. it fucking sucks and it hurts in the worst possible way. it especially sucks when you want things to work but they simply can’t. i can’t love the right way and i have so much of it to give. i’m trying to pick myself up and start all over again but i don’t think i can. i know we’re all searching for a heart of gold but i don’t think i have one.